3rd January 2013 | hannahhh24's Blog

Does anyone else find it strange writing 2013?! 2012 went so fast yet some many things happened... strange right? I'm really hoping my cuts and scars will heal by July, I know it seems ages away but at the rate i'm going I will have plenty of new ones to add to my collection. Everyone wonders how exacually self-harmers can hurt themselves but to me it just seems to come naturally. It's like a roller coaster, your scared at first but then once you've done it you just love the rush you get and want to do it again and again.. bit of a naff example but there you go.                                 What really annoys me is the fact that people take the piss out off self-harmers and say things before they even think, I mean come on self-harmers get more shit then people who sleep around or take drugs or smoke. I my opinion self-harm is one of the safest ways of coping, I know some people will be like what the hell is this girl on, but think about it, by self-harming we wont get nasty STDs, cancer or bad health and things from taking drugs. And if you take care of your cuts and scars and keep the blades clean then we wont even get infections! See, it's quite safe, yes OK there's the chance we could cut a vein or artery but chances are quite low, arteries are set waaaayyy back in our bodies and the veins would heal quite well on their own if we accidently cut one. I hate it how people can be so harsh and thoughtless, they say "sticks and stone may break my bones but words will never hurt me" however, this is very untrue! Words can hurt more than actions! I don't understand sometimes because people don't like others saying nasty things about them so why say it about other people?! Like I said thoughtless.                                                                                                                                                      Someone came up to me in the street today and said to me that I was the most beautiful looking girl they had ever seen. I started to believe that I was pretty, that people did notice me, but then I looked in the mirror and saw myself looking back, all freckly, ginger, bagged eyed and sunken cheeks. I feel so stupid for thinking that, I felt stupid for believing it. Mum called me stupid for being me, it was a playful stupid it was a horrible stupid, she yelled at me that I was acting stupid and like a spoilt little brat, all I said was that I wanted to spend the day with her where she wouldn't mention my little brother or always talk about him and buy him things but know I was being stupid for asking for that...  so I carved stupid into my leg, that way I will always remember that I am stupid...                                       

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